Never Sometimes Often Always

""For a long time now, my body has been a warzone. It's been going so long that I don't know who is fighting anymore. Is it me versus everyone else? Anxiety versus depression? Mental illness versus... me? Is it even possible that I can be separated from my thoughts? Can I please shift the blame, or is is it... me versus myself?

Using an online mental health quiz as a framework, this series is a window into my disease: the intense shame and self hatred; the unrelenting thoughts about others; obsessive observations about the things that """"don't matter"""" to everyone else; all the many things that make me turn on myself; and, then, finally, the beautiful moments of clarity. An account of finding self confidence (and love) again after the breakdown of a toxic relationship, """"Never Sometimes Often Always"""" is a celebration of me, all that has shaped me, and all I have overcome.""