Bride of the Emperor

He is the source of your stress, the reason why you're hundreds of miles from home, but each day he creeps more and more into your heart. It's been years since you've allowed yourself to feel. You've tried in the past, thought that it would make things easier if you found love; it just wasn't the right fit. Nearing your thirties, you know that the window is closing on finding anything serious.
Something about him tickles the back of your mind, as if you've forgotten something that was more important to you than anything else at one point. Your family needs you. Your family's business needs you. Even with your hands tied while you wait like a sitting duck to be set free, they're always on your mind. Then why does the gentle caress of his lips leave your mind blank and your body warm with desire? Why do you want to keep going even though you know you need to stop? Why won't he let you? When your past comes to light, you don't want it changing your outlook, but it has. Will you continue forward or linger in the past?