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In love's grand ballet, time takes the lead, Through moments of joy, and moments we bleed.Patience, a dance, both slow and profound, In love's gentle rhythm, its heartbeat is foundLike seeds in the earth, awaiting the rain, Love grows in the heart, through pleasure and pain. Anahita We are free to choose... But sometimes your choice first demands a renunciation and then a penance...and mine is You!!!"You can't manipulate me in your sweet lies anymore. "If you don't tell me the truth now, then consider this marriage over, Suvanjay. Don't bother ever coming back to me or show me your face again. Whatever we had ends here... our marriage ends here... You are as good as dead to me."The vile words I had thrown at Suvanjay on that fateful day reverberated in my eardrums like a haunting refrain. Each syllable felt like a weight, an anchor dragging me back to that painful moment of anger and frustration. My heart and mind were grappling with the possibility of losing him, and the weight of my regret was almost suffocating. My words from that day seemed to take on a life of their own, and they echoed in the corridors of my mind, a relentless reminder of my own recklessness, of the pain I had inflicted without realizing the consequences. I had taken his love for granted, and now everything was slipping through my fingers.The depth of my emotions underscored the complexity of relationships- the way we can swing from love to anger and back again in the blink of an eye!! Suvanjay If you're expecting me to dance on the lips of a volcano to make you believe in me & prove the truth... I won't do that. I don't feel the need to explain myself any further. Hate me as you please.... It doesn't make a difference to me or my journey!! I loved Anahita more than anything, including myself and therein lies the lesson...I learned it so goddamn hard!! I wanted to fight for us, but I won't beg for her love!! The stones of humiliation that have been thrown on me, I won't collect them. I would happily let them fall where they land, and I would keep going because none of the verbal stones or fucking gazes full of hatred would be able to knock me down. I have used all of my words, but she was still not ready to understand my hurt. So, I will let my silence explain her now. I won't take the responsibility of building up a bond that I didn't break. If I have to argue about my feelings, the conversation is over.So, this is me understanding that sometimes beautiful things end, and endings don't need to be messy. This is me realizing that there is nothing I can say or do to fix that. This is me reminiscing that at one point in time, we were the lucky ones who could beat the odds. This is me learning that there was no point fighting for someone who was okay to lose me. And this is me finally accepting that it's better to detach myself from what destroys me. Note: This is a full-length 147k-words emotional, angsty, second-chance romance novel. This is second and final part of the book- 'You're All I Ever Need' and cannot be read as standalone.

SuvanjayIf there exists an enchiridion, For all the ways a person could mess upHis love life and happinessIt'd have my name written on it in Golden Letters!!My life deserved a vade mecum of its own. Our eyes connected for a brief moment- hers angelic and mine devilish. The moment oozed a mix of innocence and ecstasy- Hers innocent smile... mine ecstatic. It was a moment of pure sin- She was pure, and I was sinful but that's how our first collision was!!The word "enough" does not exist for Water, Fire and My She-devil. A Honey-Pepper Horilka!! I couldn't decipher why my first response to her was of touch rather than words... was it because I wanted to control her sassy mouth or was it something else? Her beauty and charm had a magnetic effect on me, pulling me out of the darkness that had consumed me for so long and I couldn't help but be drawn to her radiant energy. I wanted to embark on a quest to unravel the mysteries of her heart, to comprehend the depths of her feelings. I longed for a glimpse into her thoughts, hoping to find answers to my burning questions but I just got her rejection and humiliation in response. Like everyone else she also didn't want me in the end. No one does... I am nobody's brother...nobody's son... nobody's lover... I belong to no one."Deep in the recess of our minds lays a time we often forget... We file it away... A memory never to be looked again!! AnahitaAs the music faded away and the last line of the song echoed in the room, "Cause we were both young when I first saw you" a violent sob escaped my lips, making me bury my face in the fluffy pillow on my bed. I felt trapped in a cycle of reliving memories and experiencing ongoing emotional pain. The lyrics of the song mirrored the feelings I was experiencing, reminding me of that one beautiful summer vacation... those few beautiful days and moments I shared with Suvanjay, as well as the pain of his sudden departure which created a permanent void in my heart.The unanswered questions echoed in my mind, leaving me with a sense of bewilderment and an unspoken yearning for connection. The disappointment of his unexpected departure weighed upon me, overshadowing the initial glimmer of hope that had briefly ignited. As I watched him walk away, my emotions shifted from anticipation to acceptance. With a bittersweet mix of resignation and curiosity, I let go of the fleeting moment of attraction.It is rightly said, "Life's tapestry is woven with countless encounters, some fleeting and some profound." Note: This is a full-length 110k-words emotional, angsty, second-chance romance novel. It cannot be read as a stand-alone, and it ends on a cliff-hanger.You're All I Ever Need- Duet-1You're Still The One I want For Life is Duet-2.

AatishYou either didn't think of me, or you just didn't care.and I can't decide which is worse. Real life is no fairy tale... or is it? Everyone remembers Rapunzel but forgets about the Flynn Rider, who risked his life to save her from the evil Mother Gothel. People talk about the sacrifice of the little mermaid, Ariel, but what about Prince Eric, who proved his unrelenting love for Ariel by putting his life in danger and fought with Ursula? Then there was Prince Philip, who willingly fought with the fire-breathing dragon to save his love, but all people remembered was the name of Princess Aurora. Sometimes it's not only the Princess who suffers the pain in love, but the prince charming suffers too.For most people, life can be divided into two parts- 'Before and After' but for me, life started only after I met Anayra. Can life ever be without twists and turns... of course not? Life often takes unexpected drastic turns when everything seems to be going right, only to break you apart. Mistakes happen, and many of your decisions are proved wrong when destiny slaps you right in the face. But is life all about second chances? People say destiny always gives a second chance to make things right, and one should fight for something that really matters. But what if you're not ready to accept what life has to offer? When Anayra bounced back into my life again, all she wanted was a forever with me, but why should I give her a second chance?I will neither Forgive nor Forget because pain is my last link to you & I'll never dissolve that link and get free. I will dig two graves for us!! Anayra My life as Aanyra Shekhawat was a perfect fairy tale- surrounded by the luxuries of life in the protection of my royal family... all my life, I waited for my Prince Charming to come on a white horse. I imagined that my life would be magical, and like Cinderella, Aurora or Ariel, I would also fall in love with a boy, which would be the happiest moment of my story. Alas, it took me just one day to unlearn the messages spread to me through my favorite childhood stories.When I was a little girl, my Gramma told me these were two small words but carried a lot of weight. The words... "If only."How ironic- Those two words had held me captive now!!The guilt of betraying my fiancé or, I should say, my legally wedded husband...the pain and shame of destroying my family's reputation and bringing upon a public humiliation for Aatish's family were inexplicable. I couldn't forgive myself for what I had done to so many people... I didn't deserve any redemption or forgiveness. When I returned, Aatish was no more mine. Accepting the bitter truth that the man I loved the most was all set to marry another woman was like an excruciating burn. Thinking about my future without Aatish was devastating. It is said that the payment of sins may get delayed, but it cannot be avoided. Before I could realize, the time to repay for my sins arrived, and I happily agreed to the punishment. My mind started playing tricks... even without drugs. The pain of shame and guilt for all my actions crawled into my mind like a throbbing migraine. I wanted to sleep now!! Note: This book is not standalone. Readers are requested to first read its prequel Together Forever (Book-7)Trigger Warning: This book deals with some sensitive and mature contents and is strictly for 18+ audience. Reader's discretion is required.

Aatish Like a hook through a trout's mouth, the mingled music of piano and cello captivated me, yanking me towards the closed doors before I could make a conscious decision to move. The sound of soft music pulled me out of the hypnotic spell and as soon as I peeped through the door, my breath whooshed out of my body. My eyes clicked onto that porcelain doll face and the world around us froze for the moment. It seemed as if I was looking at her through my camera lens, zoomed in all the way, the world pausing for that tiny span of time between the opening and closing of the shutter. Her beauty blinded me completely and for a moment I thought I was dreaming.It is said, 'If you'll get everything in life, then what will you wish for... crave for? Some unfulfilled wishes give hope & fun in life.' I also thought on the similar lines until I met her today and realised first love is not just hard to forget; It is also impossible to let go of the spell that it casts on us. Love is quite a word... It's quite a feeling... It's quite a thing...Love is quite everything and it doesn't need a reciprocation every time.Maybe it's one -sided but still it's love... Maybe you don't do but I do. Yeah, this is the one and only truth I am in one sided love with you. Anayra Once upon a time, in a faraway kingdom, there lived a beautiful and kind girl Cinderella who found her dream prince magically despite the wicked plans of her step mother and sisters and lived happily ever after. A princess named Aurora was cursed to sleep by an evil fairy, to be awakened by her Prince Charming and they lived happily ever after. And then there was this Rapunzel, whose fairytale revolved around the theme of love between a young prince and a girl, who defeated everything that came in the way of their love to be with each other.Listening and watching fairy tales somewhere reinforced in my mind that the idea of love is always followed by the beautiful ever-after. Little did I know, no matter how many fairy tales we construct of happily-ever-after, the real life insists on intruding.My life as Anayra Singh Shekhawat- The famous Ice Princess from the house of Shekhawats was not better than that parrot in a golden cage. My friends had even nicknamed me as Elsa - poised, regal and reserved and shut from the outside world. I was a prisoner of the so-called tradition, values and moral codes which are written differently for men and women.I galloped towards a future with him to make my family happy but there was something else crouching in the back of my mind: If I agree to this, it would be the end of my dream... end of me as a woman. Something was whispering to me- 'This is your last chance.' Itisha & AbhimanyuWe were two imperfect pieces that fit perfect- Together ForeverA little fun, a lot of love and laughter, crazy companionship-what else would you want in life to be happy?Despite all the love, every relationship also needs trust. A marriage is built on the foundation of trust and loyalty- the ultimate love language. If you cannot offer your trust in a relationship, the other person feels unloved and betrayed. Hasn't someone rightly said, 'Betrayal always starts with small secrets? It hits hard, and that's when the relationship starts withering away. The funniest thing about betrayal is that it is done by the one we could never expect. Note: Pl pick this book only after reading Book-2, You & Me Are Imperfectly Perfect. This is a prequel of You're My Bittersweet Penance which will be released in Feb End. Trigger warning- This is strictly for 18+ audience.

Nivy I'll never forget the day I saw you.And ever since, I've been saying the same thing"If only, if only." Akansh Malhotra... His name was and still is my favorite word.I looked at him... and a face flashed in front of my eyes. Unconsciously my mind took me down to memory lane, and I couldn't help it.A million memories kept flashing back... everything had changed in the last, so many years, but the ink of those memories had not faded. They had become a part of me, just like salt in the sea. They were my lamp, showing me light when I was falling apart, holding me tight when I was about to break... brightening my dark paths. Akansh You killed what was left of the good in me, You crumpled and rejected my love like a trash;But you also taught me to walk away from things, Not meant for me... For years I felt like a firefly trapped in a bell jar, starving for her attention & response to my love. But today, I am no more stuck in a "Freudian loop" of obsessive thoughts & emotional flashbacks of and about the past. It took me exactly seven years to achieve all my dreams... She didn't wait for me... the realization didn't make me sad anymore... I didn't miss her anymore.I wanted a better end to our story, but it had to end in some way. Our love story was short, too short, the words finally ended, but the chapters changed my life forever. This is Book 3 of You & Me Series and can be read as standalone romance.

BLURBTrue love is about growing as a couple, Learning & experiencing each other each day.It's a magical connection, an alchemyI water your soul, You water my soul & We just grow together. Itisha"The love we had for each other made up for all our small imperfections & we started our journey forever together." He was just like the moon- Solitary & Cratered with imperfections. Wrapped in mysterious darkness, but just like the moon, he shined like a silver empress of the night. I was like the night bird who used to wait for the off-limits moon every night. Like the moon, he was the one in a million, but he was afar in the sea of stars.I so wanted to explore the darker side of that moon. I so wanted to know, would there be a moment when he would look at me and love me irrevocably?The irony couldn't be better explained... "Dying to know afraid to find out." AbhimanyuLike the sea, my heart had its storms, its own tides, but in its depths, it had its pearls too but to reach that part, nobody ever made an effort to dive deep until Itisha. I was still getting used to the feeling of being in love with Itisha when she decided to walk away forever.We both were imperfect with our own set of flaws, but what we had between us was real, something we both could feel but couldn't express."The single most extraordinary thing that I ever did in my life was falling in love with her." Note: This is Book 2 of You & Me Series and can be read as standalone romance.

Manya I was wrong to wait for'Impossible to Happen'Everyone told meYou deserved betterBut how could I find someone newWhen my dreams were 'Stuck to One'You took my smile with youI could neither wait nor give upSo, I chose to mute my 'Feelings Forever.'RIP- My One & Only Love An infinite capacity for illusion, an undying dream... an obstinacy to want- to want and want, perseverance to hope, an unquenched thirst of endless wait, an inexplicable burning pain of unfulfilled desire, an involuntary, hopeless, compulsive anguish, the melancholic tunnel of undying hope... an unrequited love! But is it love when it is unrequited?" Sleep eluded me forever, and I spent countless nights wondering why it happened to me. I got tired of listening to sad songs and weeping throughout, reminiscing the moments when I fell in love with you. When I saw, my love getting married to my own sister, I felt as if I was buried in the depth of hell. There was a constant ache within my soul, and I was angry with my destiny... I was mad at him and jealous of my sister's fate.I knew I never owned him and had no right to feel angry at seeing them together, but I succumbed to my human emotions. I constantly failed to pretend to be happy for them when I was internally bleeding. I knew my anger and jealousy were wrong because Vivaan never loved me. My longing for him was like rheumatic fever lingering for years and damaging my heart permanently despite my conviction that I would surely get over it at some point in time. Vivaan It was just You & MeAnd the world stoppedThere's nothing else... except us!No noise, no other people, no thoughts or worries, no yesterday, no tomorrow!!You're the missing rib that completed my halfYou gave me the hope, when I was all outMy World just stoppedThe moment I realized it's you and it'll be only you. Manya- The Untamed Thunderstorm wrapped in a beautiful body...Simply Unpredictable Yet Terrific!! Someone has rightly said, "Time flies over us, but it leaves its shadow behind." Although time seems to fly by, it never travels faster than one day at a time. I missed her more each day, thinking about what we had between us. I had erased all her text in my attempt to move on, but I could never forget what she wrote. We had stopped talking, but I couldn't forget her voice. Life indeed brings tears, smiles and memories- the tears dry, the smiles fade, but the memories last forever.I submerged myself in work, and there was no space for any permanent relationship in my life. I won't say I deprived myself of any physical pleasure, but the doors of my heart were tightly shut for all the women. I just enjoyed casual hookups to satisfy my carnal cravings keeping all my emotions aside. Even after six years, I was holding on to her memories, hoping we'd be together again. I had promised myself not to develop any special feelings for any other women, but sometimes your heart flips over. Sometimes it's inexplicable but there is always a little 'I NEED YOU' behind every 'LEAVE ME ALONE.' Pl note this is Book 6 of You & Me Series and can be read as standalone. Trigger Warning: This book deals with sensitive contents like death, grief and mature contents and is strictly for 18+. Reader's discretion is required.

Our Nuptial was like a blaze.It started like an increasing tinder temperaturereaching its destination to finally combust.It was like a kindling of a flame- very pretty, often hot and fierce, but still only light and flickering.As our love grew older, our hearts matured andour love turned like coals- Deep-burning and Unquenchable. SamairaThere is something when love is one sided, U pray for him silently, U romanticize your life with him, U feel like giving up all the good things in your life for him, U try not to sound desperate when someone talks about him, U try avoiding hearing his name from someone yet you want to know all about him, U smile unconsciously when you think about all your What If's with him, U feel good at their happiness even if he is unaware about your existence.Damn you my Unrequited love!!There is no doubt why life is called a wondrous mystery. Like a roller coaster ride it elevates you towards highs of happiness- Adrenalin absorbed, Endorphins screaming, keeping you on the edge with anxiousness to reach the peak and enjoying the sense of achievement. Alas, the ride never lasts enough and so is happiness.Dreaming about forever with Asher was like a roller coaster high but it was time for my descent. I was falling down with a speed beyond control. Each one of us lives in the prison of our memories and refuses to come out. I wish I could express in words what I felt for him or what it felt like to lose him forever. I sometimes tried... but the words fell desperately short. Hell, I could not even blame him for breaking my heart... This was just my pain to endure.I kept on struggling to decipher whether loving Asher was "A Wonderful Feeling or an Endless Pain." Asher"What's wrong?" My mind asked my heart."Just too tired..." My Heart repliedTired of pretending strong, when I am splintered.Tired of not being good enough for anyone.Tired of trying to keep the truth buried in my heart.Tired of back stabbers, Tired of my insecurities, Tired of people disbelieving me, Tired of pretending to be confident, Tired of accepting the bitter truth, Tired of being tired... Just too tired.There were so many questions in my mind but there was no one to answer. I kept on questioning myself, what actually went wrong... where I missed out? Was my love not enough? Suicidal thoughts started haunting in my mind as every day I was falling into the state of greyness and numbness. I felt helpless, hopeless and things I had never felt before. I lost my will to live. A man can survive almost everything, as long as he sees the end in sight but depression is so insidious that it compounds daily and it's impossible to ever see the end of it. I was not a prisoner of my past but at the same time the memories of your mistakes never fade. I wish we could choose which memories to remember. This is Book 4 of You & Me Series and can be read as standalone romance. Trigger warning- This book is for 18+ audience