Böcker av Shawn Pearson

Being called to a position of leadership is an honor and also the task, especially if you are a woman. I recognize that I have been called to a position of leadership that requires me to share my personal experiences with developing into a woman of virtue. This is not something that has come easy because for much of my life, I neither understood the definition of virtue nor believed that I had the capacity to achieve it.I have been called to a work of breaking the cycles and break the chains to create women of virtue. This means I am going to be a nontraditional leader in the sense that the way God is using me may contradict much of the tradition that we have learned in the modern church. I am not the kind of leader who will sit quietly in disagreement when I hear someone teaching scripture incorrectly. Incorrect teaching almost cost me my life, literally. Because I had incorrect and incomplete teaching about the Word of God, I was left vulnerable. I found myself in a position of hopelessness. I was hopeless to the point that I wrote letters of apology to my family members for the way that I had failed them and then attempted suicide.You see, I spent my whole life trying to measure up, trying to be loved by others. I have been an overachieving child in hopes that it would change my relationships with my father and my mother. I later became an overachieving girlfriend who would do whatever my boyfriend asked me to do, just for the sake of feeling loved and accepted by him. Later, I grew into the overachieving, yet inexperienced wife. You would think that surviving the suicide attempt would have been something that brought me joy. But instead, it made me feel like even more of a failure.I believed that I could not even achieve this successfully. The fact that I felt hopeless enough to take such desperate actions would not seem so surprising for someone who didn't "know the Lord".At the age of 19, I accepted Christ as my Lord and Savior, believing that this singular act of surrender would transform my life and move me from the place of misery after the death of my mother. I was only 18 when she passed from cancer, at the tender age of 47.

As you read, you may wonder what moved me to write about such things as these to follow. You see, some time ago I discovered that it's the untold things in our lives that often contribute the most to who we've become. The untold stories, good and bad, have been used by God to mold me into the woman that I am today.In this book, unsung heroes will be recognized, villains will be exposed, and ALL will be forgiven. Letting go of my past and forgiving me was the hardest thing I ever had to do.I used to believe that what others said, thought or felt about me defined my worth and my destiny. I've come to understand that the key to my health, my sanity, and my blessings all lay in my obedience to God. I hope that you can learn from my stories and experiences and find your own path to obedience. The true stories to follow are being shared for the making of a woman somewhere that has no idea that your mess can become her ministry and the fuel that propels you into excellence. No matter what you've been through or what you've done because of it, you are worthy of being loved, worthy of respect, and you do indeed have a purpose for being here. I am stepping into a very vulnerable position to share things that may cause you to judge me. If you feel tempted to judge, remember that God is faithful and just to forgive. I would ask you to show me some grace as well. For the reader who can identify with any part of my life, be encouraged. God is not finished with you yet. Your purpose is meant to help others. Just trust Him.

This is an inspirational expose on the life of an author, public speaker, community organizer, and entrepreneur, Shawn Marie Pearson. This motivational piece tells the abbreviated story of a young Christian woman's controversial experiences in her life and the church, as she matures on her journey to virtuous. This book is a testimony of how a right relationship with God, not religion, can bring you into a life of purpose, as well as freedom from physical, mental, emotional, spiritual and financial bondage. Taking Back My Heart addresses the impact of a broken soul remaining unhealed as the author attempted to build her family, marriage, ministry and businesses.