Böcker av Julia Bodwell

It's been thirty-six days, twenty-two hours, eleven minutes and eight seconds since the worst day of my life. Janelle Beckley never imagined she'd be that girl.The girl who cheats and lies.The girl who abuses painkillers and uses self-harm as a coping mechanism.The girl who would willingly break her own heart just to keep her secrets safe. But when she's raped while on a family vacation, her carefully-crafted world falls apart. Convinced it's now easier to be that girl than to tell the truth, Janelle decides to stay silent. Besides, who would forgive her for the things she's done when she can't even forgive herself? As Janelle struggles to put her life back together, her demons pull her in deeper and deeper, threatening to consume her entirely. If she's going to overcome them, she must finally admit the truth: to her family; to her friends; to herself. But can the one person she's lied to the most find a way to forgive in time to save her? Or will redemption come too late? After all, one mistake can change everything. For fans of Thirteen Reasons Why, Speak, and The Way I Used to Be, this coming-of-age debut explores the aftermath of sexual violence and the destructiveness of self-blame, reminding us that the road to forgiveness must start with yourself.

Six months after his sister's death, seventeen-year-old Freddie Monroe is still reeling from the loss as if it were yesterday. More than anything, Freddie hasn't been able to forgive himself for not being there the night Kaylee took her own life. He remains consumed by the notion that he failed to protect his younger sister. At his therapist's recommendation, Freddie finds himself going through Kaylee's bedroom, sifting through her things and clinging to her memory. Searching for answers. When Freddie first stumbles across Kaylee's diary, he hesitates to open it, unwilling to break the sibling code of privacy, even in death. But once he finds the courage to delve into its pages, he realizes he didn't know his younger sister as well as he thought. What secrets was Kaylee hiding? If she had confided in Freddie, could he have saved her? The more Freddie uncovers, the more he realizes the truth is nothing like it seems.